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My brother: EVeryone knows he hates me, and that i hate him. We all know he wants me gone..and we all know that i want him gone also. He trys to get me introuble for the stupidest shit..stuff about death or lyrics in my info..what a fucking ass hole..but i really dont give a shit cuz when you think about it..hes almost 18 and out of the house..im only 14 turning 15 soon and he says ill probably leave before him which is a good thing cuz i dont have to fight with him anymore and maybe just maybe my life will be a better place.
Basics: I was born on November 24,1987 in a small town in New jersey. Then i moved to Hopatcong, New jersey. I'm still liveing with my parents & brother. My brother is now 17. And I'm 14. We dont like eachother much. I would love to move to New York and work on a career is truthfully, that it is a fairy tale dream which will basically never come true for me. So i maybe want to be a phographer. Or write.
Outside: Standing 5'8. I'm naturally a Brunette. I have Blue eyes which are usually grey.
I'm normal just like a normal human being. If you want to see pictures go to Photo Album.
Inside: For someone as young as I am, I can honestly say that I've learned more things in my small life span then most do in their entire lifetimes. I'm not saying that I'm some brilliant scholar or anything. I'm not even saying that I've learned everything there is to know about life, but I surely have come across a few of life's little lessons. I've been battling with depression, self insecurities, etc., for a number of years. Although, a majority of the time these things make me want to run off a cliff, they've helped me come to a many of realizations in my life. It's quite funny though. Many people think that I'm some stuck up bitch who thinks she rules the world, but in reality, that is the biggest joke possible. Unfortunately, people never really take the time to get to know me on a more personal level. I don't know; I guess you really do have to get to know me in order to understand me. I'm one emotional roller coaster, but, it's a hell of a ride.
Religon: My mom and dad never forced religion down my throat. Some may think that my parents just didn't care about it or anything. On the contary, that's the exact opposite. Both, my mom and dad are extremely religious people, but keep it to themselves. Why? Well, my parents believed in keeping their religion to themselves and not foricng us into it. They allowed us to choose the religion that we as an individual felt most comfortable in. A person can not help to question the faith and such. Once, believing I was athiest, and then agnostic. Only though, through my times of questioning. Allowing myself to explore my religions has made my faith even stronger. Being born into a Catholic family and being Catholic, I do not always follow the Catholic worship. I don't even know if I want a Religon. I mean from my point of veiw. God sucks. Hes no more then us.
Music(punk,metal,hardcore..): Marylin Manson, Tool, Staind, Mudvayne, Slipknot, Morbid Angel, Cradle of filth, NIN, Fear factory, Power man 5000, nonpoint, Sick of it all, My Ruin, gODHEAD, Rob Zombie, Suicdal Tendencies, taproot, weezer, Noyhinhface, Mindless self indulgence, Minus, Nirvana, Hatebreed, glassjaw, from zero, Green Day, soulfly, godsmack, hopefall, Linkin park, Good Charlotte, Korn, Kittie, Alien Ant Farm, Blink 182, Blueskiesburning, boy sets fire, Drowing pool, Deftonesm Diecast, incubus, Jack off jill, Switchblade syhmony..more..
Family: My parents are not divorced. My dad cool but we don't get along much, I really do love him, i hate him more now since he wants to send me to bording school and move..I DONT WANT TO LEAVE THIS TOWN!!!!!! My mother of course, we're extremely close. I wouldn't know what to do without her. My brother now, we use to never ever get along. We fight to much, we hate eachother to the bone. I dont care much about him.
Status: I'm not single. I have a wonderfull boyfriend, named Spencer..he's great in everyway. Haveing one who cares about you is the best thing too. I love that feeling of haveing someone one there..to care for you in that way. So when everyone turns on you, you always know that you have that someone. Who can make you feel good, and can do things with that a bf and gf should. When ever i see spencer..he makes every bad feeling go away. I feel safe in his arms..I may not thank him alot...but im always greatful. I love him with all my heart. hes what keeps me liveing everyday..I thank him for that. Im such a special person, when you think about it. I hope our fights dont get in the way..they only make us stronger at the end. Love you, Mwah.
Best Friend: I've been through a lot with friends. Finally, I have found one who doesn't make me feel inferior to her. She doesn't snort coke and talks down to me as though I'm an idiot. She doesn't ditch me to hang out with other people. She doesn't act like some ghetto ho. Who am I talking about? Jamie. We have been friends for atleast 3 years now Yet, I feel like I've known her my entire life. For once, I can be myself and not be ashamed of it because she doesn't think she's superior to me like my other friends did. I've been through so much shit with friends, and Jamie is completely different from friends I had before. She isn't stuck up, she isn't a whore, and she doesn't do anything in her power to make me follow her decieving ways. Because, she doesn't have any. She is truly the best friend I've ever had. Shes unqie. She doesnt give a fuck what people think. She follows what she wants.
Hobbies: Guys! I am the biggest nerd. I truthfully am. I sit about 3/4 of my day at this computer. Talk about unhealthy! I occasionally go outside and walk to my close friends house. . And, I LOVE the rain. Anytime I can, I'll be out there. Just to walk in the rain. Its so pretty, rain puddles are the best. But also, I love to go and hang out with all my friends. I must say, when you have all of use together you'll see some funny stuff. I'm a normal teenage girl though. I like to go shopping, listen to music, sing, etc.
Education: Yes, I'm a Sarcastic. And I am in 9th grade. I try my best to work. But i end up failing. But sometimes you just dont get it. Well I'm getting very tired of my school. I need to go to the high school. I know more people in there really.
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